The conditions to write about yourself, in an interesting way, are extremely difficult if your life lacks the required substance. Still it is of great importance that there is some sort of basis for people, that in one way or another, have become victims, and probably totally involuntarily, happened to take part in my music, this basis is called a biography.

My first thought concerningthese lines was to simply line up my life in chronological order, like a calendar or diary. Partly because it is probably the easiest way, but on the other hand it would probably also be good therapy for myself to get an insight and perhaps also to straighten out the twenty seven years of totally pointless decadency that I somehow have managed to suffer through. Unfortunately my weak sense of consequent documentation or the absolute useless part of my brain that is called the memory did not allow that. So I chose to write this completely spontaneously and blindfold, with the motivation that it would probably represent my substance free life in the best way.

At the age of twenty I was told by someone that I can sing, and that I really should expound this talent by applying to some sort of musical education. As I at that time solely spent my time spending the heritage of my deceased father’s life insurance on food and booze, resulting in my weight ballooning to 107 kilos, I now saw an opportunity to break this self destructive behaviour and actually do something to get away from the little community that for nine years had sucked everything of creative production out of me.

I ended up in Stockholm, at that time I thought it to be a world metropolis as I only had experienced the city through films and TV which had occupied my time whilst I was awake. I attended two different music schools for two years and to my surprise Idiscoverd I was a pretty good singer. This was sadly the only positive side I could find in myself. The big world metropolis, as I thought it to be, and that I earlier have had only a fictive relation to started to show its true value. It was in a painful way I realized after living there for two years, how superficial the city is. I realized there was no way to obtain (female) attention visiting bars and clubs if you weigh over hundred kilos. I maybe had a small place as a singer in my company among musicians, but in all my attempts to get in touch with the opposite sex there were no limits to my complete woe.

Therefore I decided that only one meal a day was to provide for the necessity of my nourishment. The rest of my daily consumption consisted of alcohol only. To the majority of dietists and exercising persons this ought to be the worst way of losing weight, but hell, it was so effective! A year and a half later I was 40 kilos lighter and every mirror I passed by was my best pal.

It was at this time I started to compose songs, mostly because I had nothing much else to do during this happy time. I composed for myself for a year before I finally dared to let anyone else take part in my songs. A demo was recorded and this started a hectic time with appearances on various free stages in Stockholm.

Many of my lyrics are about this period, the superficial city, my low self confidence and some other things I found worth putting into music. Obviously there are people who find my songs have a value and that they deserve to be recorded. These people are still very few in number, but as long as they are willing to cough up the dough, I guess the number is unessential. The CD was recorded in the summer of 2005 during extremely happy circumstances in a house in the exquisitely beautiful nature reserve Sigtuna. There I spent a week together with my musicians, who for a still unknown reason have endured so many years in my company that has given me enough self esteem to dare call these musicians to be my best friends. Their talents and endurance is without any doubt the main reason this record was created and my gratitude to them knows no limits.”.